ok..so..i have this family event this weekend and my bf was supposed to come..and i was so so so pumped to have him coming with me...then BLAM!!! I end up in the hospital for a 9 days waiting for surgery. My bf (we'll call him M) was awesome and visited me everyday and the thought of him coming to this event with me kinda kept me going when i was feeling down about being in the hospital. Then...his aunty dies (she was sick) and now i feel utterly horrible because he might not make it back from the burial (which is 2 hours away) to come to the event. But the thing is the burial is friday,... the event saturday...so technically he could make it..but doesnt wanna spend the gas money on driving himself (as opposed to going with family). I dont wanna prod cuz i'll sound so utterly selfish..i mean..he has every reason to want to stay with family during the weekend..but on the other hand i havent had the easiest time lately either so it would be nice to have that mini vacation for two days with him..like..where do we compromise?...so where does that leave me? selfish gf? or what...so confused.
Another problem..i love M...but im so scared to tell him cuz it might scare him away..hes really not into that...like..i had a hard enough time gettin him to warm up to committement...do i really wanna say the big three words? I know i care more about him then he does about me...but after everything hes done for me this week..should i really ask any more? (incl the event thing)?
no idea what to do...
D.